Saturday, October 01, 2005
Tooth ache
My tooth really hurts i have 2 of them removed for my braces,the lower part was done weeks ago..actually that is wahat I really feel right now, but one thing really hurts so much and it's not my tooth it's my heart because I really don't know what to do...Rolan I really like him but he likes 2 girls me and Valerie and it hurts me so much whenever he mentiones her name..He may be sweet and everything but still he told me that it was unfair for us to like 2 girls at the same time and I told him it was okay thus I can't help it it makes my heart cry and
it usually sticks into my mind and I cant get over it. I like him for so many reasons well..
is it enough to let my heart feel this way, do I really have to accept the fact that I can't be happy with the man I really love.My heart is in grief right now and it feels so bad, because I know I can be happy
again but not with
Him. I can start again with a Guy who loves me so dear like "tooot", but it would be unfair for Him really...I don't want him to feel what I feel right now.
Rolan and
I talk up to wee hours and it's really hard for me changing some of my daily routines and just like this afternoon I called him we talked but there was this girl who said hello I ( I bet it's Val) then I also said Hi! I asked for her name, but she gave the phone back to Rolan and she asked him to be inrtoduced.
It really hurts and I almost cried but I have to be in control of my feelings because my friends are there I have to be strong.I dunno what to do...update you later
Posted by my favourite sin. at 4:17 AM