my favourite sin.

Im sick..

2006-06-14T02:17:00.000-07:00

I'm physically and emotionally sick. I have a fever 38.6 and I'm lovesick it feels like i haven't talked to him in ages!!! I hope to see him tomorrow

I miss Him!!!!!

I wish everything will go smooth tomorrow. It's my first day as a "SERIOUS" (How I wish!)College student in RTRMS.

I'm giving you up....

2006-05-16T19:12:00.000-07:00

This would be the last....I promise...You may have heard this for a thousand times but this time it's true..

I was browsing our old pictures together..I remembered the old days when we were still happy...we both messed up with this relationship but I realized nothing could ever bring our lost love back.... up to now it still hurts, it can still make me cry because I know it will never be the same again..

My friends keep on telling me to forget about him and now I'm finally letting go..It's really hard...but it's for the best...I don't want to make a fool of myself anymore...

I miss you guys....

2006-05-09T20:54:00.000-07:00

I miss my friends and classmates!!

I guess we're up to face the new challenges the lies ahead of us. I just wanna tell you guys that no matter what happen I will always be here for you.

As for me...I'm going to study in Makati Med School of Nursing. well not because my parents want to or because I could go to states or europe. It's not like that, Nursing will be my pre-med. I wanna be a pediatrician.I just hope I can make it.

how's my lovelife you may ask??
blank, zero , rei, nada....I have a lot of suitors this summer as well as admirers but I'm still taking my time.. Being single is really fun. You can do wahtever you want and you could mingle with anyone you like in short. I'm just enjoying life!!There's nothing wrong with that right??

By the way....
I'm wearing glasses now. My school requires it. I'll post a picture of me wearing it some other time. I really hate it!! It makes me look stupid and it messes up with my outfit of the day. Everybody keeps on telling me that it really looks nice even my mom...Well I don't feel like it.

Well everything seems to be fine now. My batchmates/classmates have their schools now. I hope that they will keep me updated of what's happening. I wish nothing will change....
Love you all....

Life goes on....

2006-02-01T03:30:00.000-08:00

Even if my life is not that colorful anymore, no love life...but I can live with that. I still have my friends and family by my side. I really feel very depressed suddenly I feel something is wrong with me and the worst part is I dunno why...I just have to focus and be contented..yep! that's right that's exactly what I have to do..well...life goes on...Oh my!! I almost forgot I passed all the universities except UST for interview at least*...hahhahahhaahha...can't wait to graduate and leave all the freakin past behind..but I'll bring all the good memories with my friends...that's for keeps!! well...there's nothing more in my life...I don't text Rolan anymore...don't like his attitude believe me I would rather choose the attitude of my sister combined with the plastics in school than His.It sounds to harsh but it's true. I wouldn't believe it myself until I bumped my head on the table and finally realize all his wrong doings is not worth it. I can't belive I have fallen for a guy like that....well..I have said so much...I'm not plastic this is just my opnion...don't worry I told him already.Urgh....I just can't believe that we are suppose to go to crame this saturday....but wait! ther is also some good side...I will have the chance to meet my friends in greenhills...that is the only good reason...and nothing more!!!! I heard the SPECOP 2, my greenhills friends invited me it will be this saturday...to bad the only sta student will be going there is Iris...we are going to diss that freakin' party..Yeahboy!!! hahhahaha...."We just don't like the crowd that they have" it's not worth hanging around...yeah...I know...I'm bad...but truth hurts!!well that's it...for now....

So much has been said

2006-01-09T03:32:00.000-08:00

It's monday, and everything has to be done in order..well..I started the week right by being good to everybody (like I always do) but this day was special. I was able to tell all my classmates what I really feel and they listened to me (I'm so glad!) but you know..there will always be side comments after that, but I don't care anymore..I told them that I was hurt with ahwt they did, some of them said sorry, but some of them dosen't mind at all..like(*toot*) you know who...I really don't care I've done my part, well so much for that..I ate a lot of stuff because of the "coupons in McDonalds" well Queenie, Anne, Hadeel and I went to Mcdonalds after class we ate Spag, McChiken meal and McFlurry of course!! we had a great time together...but the only problem is up to now I haven't studied yet...but..I got Thomas Brenabe's number...Yehey!!!

The Chances that I took..

2006-01-05T20:27:00.000-08:00

People simply dosen't understand me. They've been judging me since this incident happen....well here goes...I broke up with my "x" cause I'm starting to fall in love with someone I didn't think I would fall in love with.His name was Roly Poly oley (code name). I've been thinking what if I continue the relationship that I have with my "x" and just learn to love him that way I did before, the other one is...Take the risk of loosing someone who loves me so much however be happy with the man I truly love. So I took the chances of risking him in order to be happy. People misunderstood the descion that I made, but I'm still young and has so much to live for right??and it dosen't mean that I will be going steady with him for the rest of my life right?? I envy those people who has found the right partner for them.But I'm very greatful to have bestfriends like Bea and Mae who is always there for me, they never fail to confront me whenever I'm wrong, they say it right in front of my face...(they're not like other girls who tells bad things behind your back)..True friends like Marianne, Czarina, Johann, Ayeth, Queenie, Anne and the others If ever I fail to say their names.My friends are always there for me no matter what...Love you guys!!

Happy Birthday to Miguel Aquino!!!

How stupid..

2005-12-30T03:56:00.000-08:00

I dunno why I told...toot.. that we're just friends..I'm so stupid..but still he appreciates it. I hope I still have time to correct my mistakes. I made up my mind to tell him the truth this January 2 (personally) so i could see his reaction. I just hope that I don't mess up, it's a good thing that Mae and Bea will be there...( I dunno what to do without them!)..I really like him..I mean love him...and I will take the risk of telling the truth to him..wish me luck!!

I'm sick

2005-12-28T04:08:00.000-08:00

I'm sick and I'm still using the computer..weird right??? well I just got bored that's why..Bea has a new number (sun!!) yehey!!we could talk up to wee hours without her parents noticing it!!same thing goes to me..well I miss one of my bestfriend Mae Buquid...She dosen't reply to my text messages nobody answers to their phone (landline)..but the last time we saw each other (bea's birthday celebration) she told me that she would be going to their province..maybe that's why....WELL I MISS YOU BEBE!!

Merry Christmas!!!

2005-12-26T04:34:00.000-08:00

Dec. 23, 2005 we had our Christmas party for the less fortunate children.We had games we divided the children into 2 groups and each group prepared a dance number headed by me and Nashla, of course my group won. After the party we ate at McDonalds and divided the money we earned (caroling).guess how much it is??..almost P 1, 500...see how good those children are???each house they give P100, P200, P40,P30 my sisters Neliza and Felise were also part of it for experience.It was really fun..but the most happy part was seeing those children happy with a smile ont their face. We asked them if they enjoyed it and then they shouted opo!!
The night before Christmas we were in Lipa, we had our simbang gabi in La Salle I saw my old classmates. I feel bad because none of them recognized me but my mood suddenly changes because my special friend told me that he misses me...
I spent my Christmas with my relatives of course!!(father side) and then after that we went home and rested..
I wanna greet my friend Marianne it's her birthday today..I can't greet her cause I unno her cell number and she's not home because she is in San Mateo

Happy Birthday Marianne!! I love you!!!

here are some pictures..

thanks for everything..You are one of my true friend..Love you bebe

Christmas Shopping!!

2005-12-22T04:20:00.000-08:00

We just finished buying our Christmas presents and clothes. We went to Greenhills and Glorietta, Cueshe was there but I only heard them play twice : Ulan and Stay, I just got home and I'm really tired.I have a new online friend her name is Monette she seems nice and all but I still don't know her that much..well... I really have to go now, I have to rest so I could use the phone up to wee hours..to talk to *****..

Happy Birthday Bea!!

2005-12-20T21:27:00.000-08:00

Before anything else..Happy Birthday to my bestfriend Bea Hidalgo, I love you bebe..yesterday we celebrated bea's bithday in Shangrila, Mae, Cza, Marianne. Paolo, Robin and Rolan was also there.Robin and Rolan wasn't suppose to go with us since their dad didn't allow them, but fortunetly they made it even just for a while because there parents are waiting for them. We had our dinner in Boca Boca after that strolling, went to Nacho Fast (our favorite fastfood!!) and took plenty of pictures..
here are some

Another Cahpter of my life

2005-10-01T23:37:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep well last night, I watched Pinoy Big brother before I sleep, I talked to Sulgi but still something is missing..I miss his voice..The way he says hello...the way he..sings...plays the guitar..i really miss Hm a lot, last night was really weird I woke up three times and it's not because of my teeth but because of wht i feel. It really suprise me when my teeth didn't hurt even if the anestesia is gone.This morning when I woke up tears are starting to come out, I can't help it then I startedcrying really bad, after that I washed my face and started playing the piano then tears are starting to come out again.My heart is in Grief!After eating breakfast with my family mym mom asked me to take a bath becasue we are going to attend the 10:00 am mass, Isaid okay.For me the shower is the most relaxing place for me it is where I really think about my problems then thank God i didn't cry but apart of me is like dying already. I wish I said I love You to him last summer, if I did that I wouldn't be in trouble right now because where together but it would be unfair to Him considering that I still love *toot*during that time.Rolan's company really makes me feel better one word from him can make me calm down, smile bottom line is he can make me feel better whatever situation I'm in. I really miss him..

Tooth ache

2005-10-01T04:17:00.000-07:00

My tooth really hurts i have 2 of them removed for my braces,the lower part was done weeks ago..actually that is wahat I really feel right now, but one thing really hurts so much and it's not my tooth it's my heart because I really don't know what to do...Rolan I really like him but he likes 2 girls me and Valerie and it hurts me so much whenever he mentiones her name..He may be sweet and everything but still he told me that it was unfair for us to like 2 girls at the same time and I told him it was okay thus I can't help it it makes my heart cry and it usually sticks into my mind and I cant get over it. I like him for so many reasons well..is it enough to let my heart feel this way, do I really have to accept the fact that I can't be happy with the man I really love.My heart is in grief right now and it feels so bad, because I know I can be happy again but not with Him. I can start again with a Guy who loves me so dear like "tooot", but it would be unfair for Him really...I don't want him to feel what I feel right now.Rolan and I talk up to wee hours and it's really hard for me changing some of my daily routines and just like this afternoon I called him we talked but there was this girl who said hello I ( I bet it's Val) then I also said Hi! I asked for her name, but she gave the phone back to Rolan and she asked him to be inrtoduced. It really hurts and I almost cried but I have to be in control of my feelings because my friends are there I have to be strong.I dunno what to do...update you later

Another Chapter of my Life

2005-07-09T02:04:00.000-07:00

My relationship with my mom is getting well, samething with my dad....

I'm starting to fall in love again....that really scares me because I dunno wanna get hurt but that is the risk that I'm willing to take to be be happy even in a short period of time at least I have learned to love

I miss HIM....I dunno how to end my day without him...

Right now I dunno what to write because of HIM
update you some other time....mwaaaaah!!

Parting ways

2005-06-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

may have lost my first love but there is a new "someone" knocking into my heart well...gal friends you know who he is R***n...He is so cute, honest,sweet, he is good at playing basketball, CAT officer S3, gentleman, kind, he is always there for me in short he is everything that I could ever ask for.
But there is always something, reasons that comes in may way to love "HIM" (life is really full of surprises!) but there is this guy whom I loved so much....he suddenly came back to my life (which is weird) I thought he didn't like me anymore but I was wrong and know where like "FINE" and I dunno what to do it is so confusing!!
I just came up with this solution last night, that I would love R***n cause he is always there for me, When I cry he calls me up to make me feel better, to comfort me and by the time that I hear his voice I started calming down and realized that everything is okay, nothing bad will happen.R***n never fails to ask if I'm okay he is the sweetest thing
ever!I love him for these reasons. There was this incident that he didn't call or texted me, I called my friend Bea and I told her that I haven't heard his voice the whole day and it's freaking me out, I was acting weird...I realized that I can't have a normal day without him..but then again here comes my "X" he is starting to court me again and SURPRISINGLY he is starting to get my feelings back
but I do love R***n. But my "X" should learn his lesson and when that happens I'm going back to him

This school year I have new sets of classmates. I' in section B things are getting well I'm studying hard now because I parted ways with my friends and things are different but I miss them a lot I love you guys!!!

Another Day

2005-05-27T20:23:00.001-07:00

Things are going pretty well..I read a book entitled "The Princess Diaries" johann lend it to me and I had finished it last night it only took me 1 day to finish the entire book. The story was not like in the movie the book was way better.
Johann, Bea and me went to my house I forgot that we are suppose to get our module in Philacademics so when they got here I haven't taken a bath and I was reading the book.Johann told me that she was calling me for several times so I take a bath, eat lunch and decide what to wear which is very difficult.
Ater that we went to Bea's house she change her tops and we were calling some peepz to meet us at the mall afterwards but none of them responded so we went to Shangrila we were ezpecting someone but it seems like they couldn't, because they also have their own plan and we could meet them at around 7 but we weren't allowed to stay that long so we went home at 5pm.
I spend my morning playing the piano while singing (it was really fun!)and reading some more books.

Another Day

2005-05-27T20:23:00.000-07:00

Jelousy kills me

2005-05-23T02:31:00.000-07:00

Jealousy kills me!

My friends Johann, Bea and I went to Robinsons Galleria to meet our new set of friends in La Salle Greenhills and it was my first time to go there my mother didn't even know that I've been there. We went to Rob. Place after our review classes at CSB and after our classes we went to the LRT station we got lost because we didn't know that we are suppose to ride the LRT going to Ortigas and because of that we decided to take the Taxi. We met MEL, Paolo, Gerard and some othe friends in th net.
For me everything has gone quite well Almost! My day has turned upside down when I saw "HIM" (clue:He was my first boyfriend)
he was covering his face but I recognized him of course! and then I just smiled but Johann and Bea recognized him so we got back and he introduced us to his girlfriend she was so pretty I was so "Jealous" some tears started falling down from my eyes at first I didn't know why, but it made me realize something..."that I still have feelings for Him" i dunno why but the feelings that I have for him is different I also realized that "he is not only part of my past but also my present and maybe my future" He keeps on coming back to my life "whenever I move on I keep coming back to the place I started" My love for him is unpredictable but one thing is for sure "Tehere will always be a place for him in my heart no matter what happens" I loved him that much...and I will always will...
Getting back to my story Johann had an idea of taking me and gerard a picture in front of them to boost some confidence..I felt quite good...Paolo also told me that the "GUY" was looking at me he didn't mind at first but he keeps on looking at me...that made me smile a bit..
After all that Misery we went home at around 3:45 we got home at around 4 but we never got lost ofcourse, that day was really fun! it was full of twist and turns for me I didn't know that seeing "HIM" with "HER" would hurt that much..

HE BEGGINING HAS COME TO AND END

2005-05-17T23:38:00.000-07:00

My love for you is on it's way to the end but I'm still taking my time to close it. I have forced myself not to give anytime to you because you don't appreciate me but some of my friends keep on insisting to my decisions but that really can't help because

"I'm trying to move on"

because I don't wanna look stupid, I've been calling you the whole summer and still you don't have the guts to call at my house, you haven't change a bit. Nashla and I fought about some lame reasons so my mom was mad, she was supposed to buy me a pair of shoes and that was cancelled because of he of course so I blame her for that. 4 years had passed since my mom bought me a pair of shoes and clothes, its not about being selfish it's just that

"I missed the feeling of receiving something that is close to my heart".

I have been treasuring a stuff toy that was given to me by a special someone. I am so disappointed to John because he gave Mae a very unpleasant gift he broke up with Mae on the day of her birthday. As for my opinion John really don't deserve Mae because

John is not worth it!!

Mae has given too much love, care, pride and she has sacrificed so many things for him and he doesn't appreciate it, I hate guys like that!

a month had passed

2005-05-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

Hans and I broke up last April 19, 2005 because of some reasons. I love him but I also love my MOM. We still have some communications we still talk to each other regularly but I suddenly wondered "What's the point of breaking up with him when nothing has change" I'm just fooling myself.. I still love him pero ewan ko lang sakanya kasi parang hindi na niya ko mahal kasi nga "Action speaks louder than words" lagi akong sweet pero parang binabaliwala lang niya. I want to thank Bea Hidalgo and my friends for helping me to move on. I Love You Guys!!! We went to Baguio last week it was really fun we stayed at Green Valley for 4 days and 3 nights, that house has 11 rooms and the houses nearby are really huge and pretty. Across the house is a small playground. We are at the phase III of the subdivision. My cousins went horse back riding while I'm taking pictures. After that, we went to Baguio Country Club to buy some bread and cakes. We went to La Solidad for strawberry picking it was really fun. There are lots of people who are selling stuff the one that caught my attention was the man selling Taho strawberry flavor (it's kinda weird).The next day we headed to Good Sheperd to buy some pasalubong then to Mines view park and at the last day we stayed at the Club House we played air hockey, then the driver my uncle as well as my dad took some rest because they will hit the road after snacks. We left Baugio and we wern't able to eat dinner so we are really hungry so we stopped over for a quick dinner in Pangasinan at Jollibee it was 24 hrs open and across the parking place there was a band performing the music was everywhere.There is this guy whom I have a crush on he is really cute and has a lot sense of humor he never fails to give a good laugh whenever I'm talking to him .

2005-04-16T14:43:00.000-07:00

....Ang saya ng love life ko ngayon, kausap ko nanaman siya kagabi ng Deabate nga kami about this....

Bakit pa gang boyfriend mo nakita ang ex mo sa isang venue tapos nagselos siya, understandable. Pero pag ikaw nailang sa ex niya... maarte ka??

Bakit pa gang boyfriend mo hindi ka mahanap sasabihin lakwatsera ka, pero pag siya hinanap mo... possessive ka?

Bakit pa gang Boyfriend mo tawag nga awag sayo concerned siya, pero pag ikawang tumawag, makulit ka?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo laging naka-embrace at kiss sayo in public, affectionate siya, pag ikaw laging naka hug... la ka raw hiya sa tao?

Bakit pa gang boyfriend mo panay ang aya mag- date, sweet siya, pag ikaw ang aya ng aya... demanding ka?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo vocal sa love niya, romantic siya, pag ikaw... obsessed ka?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo nag pro-pose ng marriage, committed siya, pero pag ikaw nag banggit ng tungkol sa kasal... nag mamadali ka?

Bakit pa gang boyfriend mo lagging nag-o-OT, dedicated siya sa trabaho, pero pag ikaw... ala ka raw panahon sa kanya?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo nag offer maghatid sayo protective siya, pero pag ikaw mag hahatid sakanya... ala ka raw tiwala sakanya?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo nag pasama sayo mag shopping, he values your opinion, pero pag ikaw.... dependent ka daw masyado?

Bakit pag ang boyfriend mo naglalaway sa FHM, natural lang pero pag ikaw, kinikilig kay Josh Harnette malandi ka?

Pag ang boyfriend mo ganito hiwalayan niyo na!

Sabi ni Hans man hater daw yung gumawa nito pero sabi ko naman ano pa ba yung pwedeng reason bukod dito, tapos napatigil siya, the I was right, Kasi maaaring EGO na ng guys yung pag seselos pero ang effect nun nagiging makitid yung pag iisip nila nagiging selfish, kailangan niyo nas dilang kausapin pag hindi nakinig IWANAN niyo na
kasi diba he values your opinion…lols

Malapit na mag start yung review classes yehy! Lagi nanaman akong wala..
Na m-miss k n yung mga CLASSMATES KO PATO YUNG MGA COUSINS ko lalo na si Kuya Ron pati si Charmaine

Strange things happen

2005-04-14T13:47:00.000-07:00

April 1, 2005 I went to school ksai mag me-meet kmi nila johann at bea tapos nauwi sa galaan sa Glorietta grabe anh\g kulit namin sobra sumunod si Mae sa Starbucks, pero bago ang lahat nag hanap pa kami ng money kasi wala kaming pera pero dahil sa magaling kami nag karoon kmi ng money, nung nasa glorietta kami sumunod si Hans nanood kmi ng Pacifier nakakatawa yung movie sobra! katabio\ ko nga nun si gummi bears eh, nahuli ako ng Daddy ko sa g4 na mag ka holding hands tapos pag dating ko sa bahay tinanong ako ng Dad ko, kya ngayon legal na kami..=)...Tapos nung April 12, 2005 may problem ako sa sisters tska family ko, tinawagan ko siya kaso lang sabi niya sakin maganda daw yung palabas tama ba yun?? syiempre hindi, kaya ko nga siya tinawagan kasi kailangan ko ng kausap tapos ganyun pa siya eh di syiempre nagalit ako...April 13,2005 dapat maki-kipag break naako sakanya pero nabaliktad instead of breaking up with him lalong naayos yung relationship namin (weird?!)naging emotional kami kahapon, ang tagla ko nga umiyak eh...alam ko siya rin umiyak..pero ewan ko kung bakit hindi ko magawang awayin siya at hindi pansinin siguro masyado na ako na hooked up sakanya MAHAL KO KASI SIYA EH...SOBRA...
Tapos ngayon naman umiinit ang dugo ko kay JOHN LAXAMANA kasi iniwan niya si Mae eh, mahal na mahal siya ni Mae tapos inaaway pa siya..ang dami nang sacrifices na ginawa ni Mae para kay John tapos ganun pa siya...ang sama niya sobra kung kela mag ONE YEAR na sila sa APRIL 29, 2005 SAKA PA SILA MAG B-BREAK SAYANG....sana hindi kami magkaganun ni gummibears.
*ANNOUNCEMENT* TO ALL 3-A STUDENTS: MISS KO NA KAYO!!

HOLY WEEK

2005-03-25T08:59:00.001-08:00

I miss you na...
Guys announcement lang po..kami na ni Hans Maximino Lloren Bosshard (gummibears) nung March 18, 2005 4:35 pm sorry na late yung announcement hehehe

Nandito kami ng family ko ngayon sa Sta. Rosa si Gummibears nasa Batangas nag Beach..uhh...miss ko na talaga siya eh.. Ilove You (pathetic ko nah!)

First namin mag kiss and hug nung Monday..sweet ngadaw namin eh "Daw" sige update nalang next time

yung pictures nung last day ng school post ko pag dating sa bahay...

*mwahugz*

HOLY WEEK

2005-03-25T08:59:00.000-08:00

Bad Luck

2005-03-25T03:24:00.000-08:00

Guys I forgot to tell you kanina nasunugan kami ng bahay sa Lipa nung March 23, 2005...half nung bahay namin nasunog dun yung part na may kwarto kaya lahat ng personal belongings ng tita and lola ko wala na ubos lahat I saw the whole thing lalo na yung kwarto siguro 6 inches yung kapal na natunaw na gamit..refrigirator, T.V., cabinets etc... I was crying on my way home...ICE was there to comfort me nga eh..he was hugging me siguro he was comforting me lang..update you some other time nalang.

2005-03-17T18:24:00.000-08:00

The Sweetest Thing. :)

hi, sorry man kung ngalit kita kasalan ko nmn yun d ako nkikiramdam. kung ayw mo n sabi mo basted n ko ayoko lng mgaway tayo..basta mhal prin kita

Awww. Diba ang sweet? Hehe.

ANYWAY....

PICTURESSS. :D [Sa bahay ni Bea]

2005-03-16T03:06:00.000-08:00

Maganda na sana yung araw ko kaso lang may sumira!! Ipagpalit ba naman ako sa TV? Diba ang BABAW? Ibig sabihin, mas importante pa niya pa yung TV kysa saken?? Maaring naging makulit ako pero lumalambing naman ako eh. Kasi, hindi siya nagsasalita. (KASI NANONOOD NG TV!!) Galit talaga ako sakanya. HMP. WALA AKONG PAKEALAM KUNG MABASA MAN NIYA TONG BLOG KO. Ang masakit pa.......... OO, AFECTED AKO. Di man lang niya pinakikinggan yung mga sinasabi ko. KASE, DUH?!

ANYWAY.........

Di ko sasayangin ang space dahil lang SAYO. Pumunta kami sa bahay nila Bea :) kasama si Marianne, Anne and Queenie, tapos, KUMAIN KAMI NG PIZZA. First time nga hindi magalit ng kuya niya eh. Hehehehe. :P Tapossssssssss.... KINAUSAP KO SIYA. Haaay, bwisit talaga. Alam mo ang saya saya ko pa nga eh naisipan ko pa naman na SAGUTIN KA NA. Di mo ba nahalata? Ang sweet ko kanina! Ano ka ba?! MANHID?!?! BINALEWALA MO!!

Sa totoo lang, nung tinatype ko to kanina, biglang nag brown-out. HAHAHA. :) Eh di lumabas pa kame para magsulat. HEHE. May sumisigaw pa nga nung pangalan ko eh. Para bang mga EPAL. hehe. JOKE. :D

Ako at si Marianne.

KAME.

KAUSAP SI.......... :)

AKO.

Bea and Marianne

Bea and me

Nasaktan man ako, OK lang. Kalimutan ko na lang siya. [siguro, kaya ko kaya? :P] *IYAK* ='(

BYE..

2005-03-15T21:20:00.000-08:00

SA MGA POSERS DIYAN. TIGILAN NIYO KO.

I called up Rolan a few minutes ago to clear things up. Dahil may nags-sign sa tagboard ko na sinasabi niyang siya yun.

Rolan: Hello?
me: hello.
Rolan: Oi. Musta na?
me: OK lang, di yun yung tinawag ko. Alam mo ba yung blog ko?
Rolan: HUH?
me: Blog!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rolan: Ano?
me: blog!!!!!!!!!! Website!!
Rolan: Wala akong alam..
Nicole: Hindi mo binisita?
Rolan: hindi..

TO 'ROLAN G': Kung cno ka man, itigil mo na yan. Dahil alam kong hindi naman ganon mag salita sa akin at sa mga kaibigan ko yung totoong Rolan eh, alam ko yung ugali niya dahil nakilala ko siya for a short time. And knowing him, hindi siya pala-internet. Kahit na nga Friendster niya ako pa mismo na chcheck eh. Kaya, wala kang maloloko dito, sorry ka. Isa ka lang cguro sa mga babaeng insecure, db?

Well, at least, alam ko ng HINDI sia yung nag sign sa tagboard ko ng offending words. kung cno man yun, cguro isa lang siya sa mga admirers niya. At isa sa ULTIMATE ASA diyan. At siguro, isa ka sa mga babaeng taga school ko. NAKOOO.. Wla ka talaga magawa cguro. OH WELL. LOSERS GALORE na tong blog ko. Cguro tigil ko muna. bye:)

Happy Birthday!!

2005-03-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

Before anything else I would like to greet my cousin Ron Kevin Litan a Happy Birthday!! Happy Birthday Kuya Kev's I miss you so much..please give me a hug to Charmaine and Lawrence thank you..
lastnight I was sick I was having a stomach ache I wasn't able to sleep well lastnight I wasn't able to do my homework because I immediatley went to sleep. When I arrived at our school I went to the music room and practiced the songs for the mass, and I was thinking "ano kaya nakalimutan ko??"and then Mae asked me if I have done my longtest in L.O.P. and I said "that's it" I was cramming and it was supposed to be typewritten because it's a notarial will and I dunno what to do I called my dad's secretary if she could do a favor for me and she said yes, but the last time I called her my father answered the phone and I dunno what to do, because I know he is gonna scold me on why I need to bother them and it was my fault because I didn't do my assignments in time but in the end, he forgives me because I promised not to do it again. I ask the secretary to type my will but instead my father did it for me (he love's me so much!).....so much for that well this afternoon Hans and I talked about stuff, to tell you the truth he is improving on the way he is making "ligaw" but I stil appreciate it because it was his first time to love someone, I think I really like him more than a friend, but I still love #19 (whoever he is). update you tommorow cause I'm still working on my Investigatory project....*mwahugz*

Things in the past

2005-03-07T19:10:00.000-08:00

Even before I used to be very stupid when it comes to love I dunno why, maybe it's already a part of me I really can't understand why, I remembered something, it's about my ex-boyfriend he is the only guy that made me feel so special (except now), he used to care for me so much, he used to tell me how he really feels about me and I love him so much but things didn't end up quite well. I guess I don't love him anymore I wrote a farewell letter to him 3 pages back to back but I don't have the courage to give it to him, there will always be a place for him in my heart but now I moved on and starting to open my heart to someone else I just hope that things will go on well.I realized that nothing will happen to me if I kepp on remembering him, but this new love that started to bloom in my heart last month was different, what I'm experiencing now is ten times better and I hope that this would go on....update you later cause I'm still doing my homework

2005-03-05T22:30:00.000-08:00

The only way to express my feelings to the one I love is through LOVE LETTERS. Gawain namin kapg boring yung subject teacher. "Love ko talaga siya."

Gummibears,
Haaay. I'm thinking of something, na dapat basted ka na, pero but na lang hindi ko itinuloy kasi hindi pa kita kaya i let go kasi mahal na mahal na mahal kita, na ikaw si #19. Alam mo, masakit pa rin yung mata ko sa kaka iyak kanina, masyado kasi ako naapektohen eh. Thank you kaso okay lang lahat sayo mga pinagagawa ko, thank you sa effort and sacrifices, gusto ko lang kasi makita kung kaya mo i-prove na mahal mo ako, yung sulat sa likod gawa ni Mae yun (cute noh?) haaay love na love talaga kita sana ikaw din, love mo naman din ako diba? Nagluto kami kanina ni Johann ka tatapos lang eh, tinawagan ka rin namin (remember?) Ala lang naisipan lang ita gawan ng latter kasi ang cute ng stationary eh, tapos ikaw pa yung unang taong pumapasok sa isip ko, kya yun. Alam mo sa totoo lang, hindi ko naramdaman yung love na to sa ex ko. kasi sakaniya iba, ive never felt like this befroe. Sige bye na mag note taking pa ko eh Love you! :)

Love lots,
Nic#19

jelousy is not a good key

2005-02-21T19:54:00.000-08:00

I'am so unhappy today maybe because of somethings that concerns my love life but yesterday was a good one we had our Junior and Senior prom,I was two hours late hmph... too bad but I was happy back then everything has gone quite well....almost evrything, there is this one incident that happened I didn't mean to do that grabe..nag back fire agad mangiyak ngiyak na ko when I saw "Him and Her" hanggang ngayon affected parin ako I dunno, maybe because I love Him so much bad trip ako kaya ang sungit ko kanina "to all the peepz out there na nasungitan ko SORRY" lalo na sakanya kay **** ewan ko ba pero baka kumanta kami ni Mae sa assembly "Torete" yung title, para sakanya yun, nag away din si John and Mae kaya parehas kaming lumuha ng hindi sinasadya kanina...akala ko pa naman masaya na ang lahat but I was wrong....lalo ko pa siya pinag seselos kasi ewan siguro dahil sa sobrang galit pero mali pala yun kasi nasasaktan ko din siya pero promise hindi ko na uulitin...Nakausap ko si Dana kanina nag kwento siya tungol sa crush ko lagi daw niya ako hinahanap nung TPR nagatataka siya kung bakit, tapos hinahanap din daw niya ako kay Maico nung pumunta siya ng SM *kilig* haaaaaay buti kahit papano may magandang nangyari....Bakit kaya ako pinapaiyak ng mahal ko??? hindi pa nga kami pinaiiyak na niya koparang gusto ko na mag give up...kung kelan niya siabi na mahal niya ako saka pa kami magkakaganito sana mag bati na kami pero hindi ako yung mag sorry...kasi kelangan ko naman magtira ng pride para sa sarili ko dahil kumonti na yun dahil sa mga nagawa ko para sakanya hindi ko lang alam kung na appreciate niya...*tears*

Torete
Sandali na lang
maari bang pagbigyan?
aalis na nga
maari bang hawakan, ang iyong mga kamay
sana ay maabot ng langit
ang iyong mga ngiti
sana ay masilip

Chorus
Wag kang mag alala
hindi ko ipipilit sayo
kahit na lilipad
ang isip ko'y torete sayo
[torete...ehtorete torete
sayo]

Ilang gabi pa lamang ng tayo'y
pinagtagpo
na parang may tumulak, na
nanlalaming, nangiginig na ako
Akala ko nung una
May bukas ang ganito
mabuti pang umiwas
Pero salamat, na rin at nagtagpo

Torete torete torete ako
Torete torete torete sayo

Chorus

2005-02-16T20:22:00.000-08:00

I just woke up my yaya told me that she was waking me up but I didn't know. I skipped dinner and my head hurts the last thing that I knew is that I went straight to bed to read something and then I began imagining things and then I fell asleep. My head really hurts, but things are going quite pretty well because I am no longer confused with my feelings "I reallly love #19" and that is a fact. I have moved on and I love him so much and I know that he loves me too.I just love the feeling of being in love and being loved. I also wanna thank my freinds because they beleived in me (ang laki ng kasalanan ko) pero promise I'm really serious this time.sana tuloy tuloy na toh...I luv you guys *mwahugz*

To my special someone

2005-02-14T20:26:00.000-08:00

Sobrang hectic ng schedule para sa mga Third Year students katatapos lang ng mall tour...Formal Dinner naman....Waiteress nga pala ang job ko nun, nkabasag pa nga ako ng plate eh..ang hirap kasi...after ng formal dinner here comes The Junior and Senior prom practice ng dance for the Paso Doble and hindi lang yan...nag practice p kami paras TPR lahat nangitim....well...last week pinagawa kami ng love letter scan ko sana kaso ang tagal sira ata yung scanner namin well here goes..

To my special someone,

When the sun shines at it's best, when the flowers bloom at it's prettiest it is still not enough because you are still missing in my life even if things are not getting well, as long as you are here beside me because I know that you could make things alive deep within me and I know you feel the same way.

~~~~~~~tinulungan ako sa part na to ni Albert~~~~~~

My love for you is big as the sea, as pure as a jasmine for I have found you in my dreams,everytime I look at the stars I can see your face which made me think that were destined.
I love you and I will always be yours

"alpha"

2005-01-13T18:57:00.000-08:00

Grabeh! ang saya first day namin mag alpha!!!!! ang cute namin lahat ng 3-a mukhang inosente.... haaaay nag longtest kami sa P.E. (practical) akala ko ga practice lang yun pala longtest nah hindi pa man din ako nagaayos nun kainis talaga.....hehehe napagisipan ko na gawin nalang tagalog yun mga entries ko dito kasi mas madaling mag express ng emotions .....And dami naming longtest kanina History,Filipino,P.E. tska Math haaayy.....Nagpunta nga pala kami sa bahay ni Bea parea gumawa ng "project"..Ang lapti na ng prom ala parin akong ginagawa na preperation anyweiz sa FEBUARY 19, 2005 na yun pero may FORMAL DINNER din kami sa FEBUARY 8,2005 tapos may MALL TOUR pa sa DECEMBER 12,2005 pa no na yun tapos QUARTERLY EXAMS pa NEXT WEEK haaaayyy...ngayon lang ulit ako nag update kasi grounded ako sa computer kaya dito nalang sa bahay nila Bea wakekeke...Ang saya sobra nag paplano nga kami magpagawa ng name plate ng mga crushes namin eh...grabe....we had pictures pa nga with the nameplates nung "crush ng bayan" samin.....mga kalokohan nga naman.....tapos yung iba pang gusto ng friends ko eh taken na well.....advice ko sa kanila "Hindi pa naman sila kasal" kaya yung mga tao diyan na umaasa saamin....Sorry loyal kami sa mga minamahal namin.... *wink*

2005-01-04T20:58:00.000-08:00

This day was so fun I have been so hyper I dunno why but things are getting better now. I forgot my pillow at our house (May values Ed. pa naman ngayon). We will have our dry run tomorrow for the poetry festival and our piece is The Psalm of Life by Henry Wardsworth Longfellow. Mae and I will be singing for the festival "For you I will by Monica". We had our weekly assembly this morning the sponsor was the following student from third year A Erika "Quiet Talks" Czarina and Mae "Lupang Hinirang" Carlos "Panatang Makabayan" Me and Ayeth "OBMC Hymn" as usual makulit parin kami. until now we haven't practiced our poem simultaneously but Third year has all the luck.

All I want for Christmas...

2004-12-09T18:40:00.000-08:00

My Wish list

1. Love Life [R*lan.. YIHEE. :) ]
2. Stuff toys
3. Tickets to Disney on Ice (this is soon to COME)
4. Good Health
5. Happy Family
6. Plenty of Cash

That is all. I'm not a materialistic Person, you know.... [Hehe:)]

My friends and I played Dodge ball this afternoon, we had a really nice time playing . :D

We had a long test in history, it was so difficult no Identification but we had essays, giving the meaning of the vocabulary words and people to identify. I had my long test this afternoon because I was absent yesterday.

I have so many things to catch up and a report for tomorrow, drill sheets and a test in English.

I just had my monologue done this afternoon and played the role nun, who was protesting about women equality, it was really hard I mean, difficult. ;P

Long time, eh?

2004-12-05T08:55:00.000-08:00

It has been a very long time when I blog-ged. I think its because of my extra curricular activities such as the Sing Out and the Intramurals. This year's sing-out was better than the previous year. Well it's all because of our very beautiful choreographer, Mrs. King. :) The country assigned was India and we sang Bole Chudiyan from the movie Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham and You're the one that I want from Grease. But unlike last year we couldn't loiter around but ofcourse, me and my bestfriend sneaked out for a while because she wanted to see R***n, [hehe.:) ] the teacher saw us talking with the guys but didn't mind and just continued her conversation with the band master [forgot the name. ;p ] and afterwards she asked us to accompany her to the clinic because she's having a terrible headache. Hmm.. That's pretty much it. ;)
All our efforts were paid off. Although we didn't got the finale part, at least people has been sending us compliments on how amazing our show was until now. ;)

Intramurals Results
4th place - Freshmen
3rd place - Sophomores
2nd place - JUNIORS
1st place - Seniors

Well if we won the cheering competition and the basketball game, we'd probably get first. ;)

Oh, and by the way, I would like to thank the bestest friend in the world, Bea for the header image. =*